Hello!
Long time no see!
I have a few things to clarify, and if you don't follow, please ask me whatever.
I've been in the Tolkien fandom ever since I was 11! I was a pre-teen back then!
First got into LOTR because if its movies, then book, after that followed Silmarillion, Unfinished Tales, etc etc, then came the Hobbit movie, which I loved so much!
I've made tons of fanart IRL, and I mean, most of them are not even posted on my DA gallery!
My whole teen and teenage years was carved and shaped by my love for Tolkien's books... but... that was just it.
I gave, and I gave.... and created lots of art... but... that was all.
And now the fandom... I have noticed that the Tolkien fandom and quite an opressive manner of taking things into discution and I don't understand why some people of this fandom behaves that way. It is because Tolkien did have some deeply Christian beliefs that I don't follow? Now, I was baptized into Orthodox Church (formally) and I live an atheist life, so I'm quite open... but I do are about myself and while I'm not trying to be ignorant about this fandom, all I can do to clear things is to leave it behind after more than 15 years of activity.
As you noticed, I've not posted any Tolkien related work since the beginning of 2018 because I felt let down my many and I've felt no future, as a painter in this fandom. Kudos for those who do, you have my sincere respect!
I think I'm kinda selfish to write this, but since I worked so hard, so many years into this fandom, I received nothing back (comments and favorites don't count because I'm talking about RL stuff here) and it is a battle with no winning for me. I waste money on materials that I will never get back... because I'm broke af, I kept doing out of passion... but no more.
Also, I've been distancing myself from the Tolkien fandom because the Hannibal fandom is more openly and friendly towards its members, and I apreciate that. I only look towards fandoms that cares for its people.
Also I need to focus on my writtings and other project!
Also, I decided to post some of my works from this memorable fandom: